I have been Frustrated!

I have been kinda laying low most recently. I have been dealing with an issue, and I feel the need to just vent and hopefully put it to rest for good. I have about driven Michael crazy with it, but I feel a bit wounded and I am having my own little tizzy over it.
Before Michael and I were married, I owned a cute little house in a nearby town. 3 bedrooms, nice fenced back yard, and I was only the 2nd person to own it and live there. When Michael and I got married, we thought it would be a good idea for Boo and I to live with him. We didn't immediately have plans for the house on Rose St. (my old house), but this cute couple asked about renting it. His parents lived across the street and they were here from AR. They were wonderful people, but got transferred back to AR after a few months. A person I knew from before (his mom also lived across the st), asked about renting the house. I knew he was a single dad, and that he had previously had drug and alcohol problems, but had been clean and sober since his son was born. As a way to help him out and to have someone in the house to take care of it, we agreed to rent to him. Within about 6 months, he got laid off. Now I know many of us have been there, myself included, when you need a little help, and I didn't want to evict him because he just lost a job. He assured us he was looking, and would try to send us part of the rent. (Keep in mind, we gave him a GREATLY reduced rental to help him out, and never increased the rent, even though the plan was to do so after a time to aclimate him to the regular rent). This continued for a while, a long while. We even tried to offer him work at our house to try to work off part of his past rent bill. By now, he was behind over $1200. His work the first day was ok, but as he continued to come out to work, he stayed less time, and his work became poorer and poorer quality. We also had to provide his transportation, since he had lost his license to habitual DUI. Then he started to bring his son with him. So we were transporting him to and from (30 min each way), watching his child, and cleaning up after both the child and the father, and getting less time and poor work that had to be redone. In fact, the patch on the roof turned into three gaping holes that Michael eventually had to fix himself. (Or make them skylights.) So the work exchange didn't work out. We agreed to allow him to have a "roommate" to help with rent, but these people he moved in always seemed to move out arond due date, and they always seemed to stiff him on the help he thought he would get. It had now been since Nov. 05 since he got laid off, and he always seemed to have a possible job, but nothing would ever pan out. Now we come to Feb 07. Rent due on the 1st never shows. We call to find out when to expect rent, and he tells us about how he spent the last weekend in jail for possession of stolen property. (Somebody brought him a snowblower to fix, and he didn't know it was stolen...) He has become very unbelieveable. We told him that we needed rent brought in. We cannot afford 2 mortgages. He asked to be given until the 14th. We agreed, but reminded him that rent for March was due 2 weeks later. The 14th comes and no rent. Nor was there any where he could borrow it, nor was he working, and it didn't look like he would have it. So he told us he understood, and that he would be out of the house at the end of the month. We spoke to him on the 25th, about changing the utilities back to us, and leaving the keys for us to pick up. He was told that I would be there for keys and for the water meter reading on Fri morn. (This would be Mar2) On that am, he calls to tell us that he hasn't moved his stuff out yet, he hasn't changed the utilities (I knew this, because I had to pay huge deposits to have them switched over), and it was the middle of winter and just what did I expect him to do? I expected him to do the honorable thing and move out by the date agreed. Now he says he won't go and we will have to serve him papers. I don't want to do this, but can if needed. His arrears are now about $3600. Upon checking out the house, the damage and filth he has done to my cute little house is going to cost us over $5000 to repair. Both front and back doors kicked in and need replaced. All carpets stained beyond cleaning, walls with grease and dirt ground in. Self stick squares laid on top of my ceramic tile floor in the kitchen. The adhesive ground in so bad they will never come clean. He had a German Shepard at the house...The dog was not House friendly. They tore or pushed out all but 2 of the screens. I had put new siding and windows on the house 4 years ago. New roof 6 years ago. New water heater and furnace rebuild 5 years ago. He now complains there is mold in the house...Never had it before. The faucet of the sink is pulled out and laying in the sink. The bath room is completely tore apart. And forget all the landscaping in the back, remember, German Shepard. He has the nerve to expect us to allow him 2 to 4 more weeks to move. After about a week, he let us know that he would be out by Sat. After getting the keys, I discovered that he still had a lot of things in the garage (And I am not sure if some of them are stolen) He tells us yesterday, the 17th, the garage will be cleaned out by that day. So here it is the 18th. We met with our contractor to give him =new keys (We changed the locks, just in case) and lo and behold, there is still a garage full of stuff. And he left enough trash in the house for us to pick up after him. This whole situation has made me feel very angry, and hurt, and I have had a hard time dealing with it all. This was my home for several years, I feel as if a part of me has been violated. I am angry that he was taking advantage of our generosity. I know the Lord wants us to take care of the poor, but I was pulling extra shifts to cover the expenses. Was I guilty? How do I resove this in my own heart? I even felt as if it were interfering with my relationship with God. The fellowship didn't feel like it was there. I did finally go to my pastor to talk about it. I have done my duty to help him, and at this point was more enabling him than helping. The Lord says that we will always have the poor and even He fed the masses, but when they were no longer given a free ride, they didn't want anything else to do with him. In Thess., Paul writes that if one doesn't plow, he doesn't eat, and a person should take care of himself and his house or he is worse than an unbeliever. He also told me that I shoujld focus on the positive, the house will be fixed, and we have a person interested in renting. In all, this ex tenant owes about $10,000. We will never see this repaid. I then become reminded that for all this, Jesus forgave me for so much more. I will send him a final billing with everything itemized. The copy I keep for myself, I will consider forgiven. I need to get to that point in my heart.
Sorry about the long downer of a post...this is been what we were dealing with and I just didn't feel uplifted enough to post. I thank you all for allowing me to vent. The next post will be much more positive. Please pray for me.
Thanks,
God Bless.
Love,
Faith